Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Grace

i want this to be told of me- a man of grace. should i be called graceful person for me showing grace or for receiving it?. i am just an object of grace. i have nothing to show it.

my middle name is Kirubakaran. meaning man of grace. i don't know how much my parents knew about grace. But my father did teach me few on it. He said nobody deserves this world -even the president of US.

Bono in Stuck in the moment- i was not jumping but it was a fall , a fall to nothing at all.

heard this in t.v of what tim russert father told him. The world does not owe Tim anything and he does to the world.

i told names like tim russert, bono, us president, and my father. i think they are great people and they deserve this world for their efforts. I see people around me and the efforts they put in. I feel small seeing them. I don't have any capacity to put in those efforts. when I was sitting in my friends place last week, i could only think how gracious my God is towards me.

I was talking with a couple who has a daughter of 8 to 9 years old. they were complaining how bad the school her daughter was studying. father said boys don't know how to socialize. so they took their girl out of that school. i could only think, i was one of those boys.

my eyes were filled with tears when i read 2nd half of 'born again' by colson. when that can happened for a smart person like him, it can happen for me.

i talked so low of me not to get self pity, but to show how great few people are. of whom this world is not worthy of.

when my mother's brother was sick, my grandmother prayed- lord take my life instead of his. she considered her son's life more important than hers.

knowing very well that they will die in 5 to 10 years after they land in india, many europeans kept coming to south india to build schools. they considered all deprived indians life more important than theirs.

history is filled with people like these. they are truly graceful people.

some know grace by receiving it and few by giving it. all i want to say is this. it does not matter how you know it but if you know it.

i take pride in my understanding of grace. do you?