mission, disciple, and grace.

Father and 2 sons

2011-12-25T07:24:00.000-08:00

In Luke 15 parable of 2 sons, who is the Father?.

There are 3 steps i follow when reading the scripture. 1. Understand the back ground behind the scripture. 2. Understand the time-less principle the author wants us to know. 3. Find the application to follow.

If you talk to any one who is close to me, they will say this - Sam does not believe any one. I constantly question the scripture. For some I got answers and others remains a mystery. good answer to my questions are at Deuteronomy 29:29. I think same was the case with Luke. Since he was a non-Jew and books he wrote are reports to an official, he would have had many question. he took much care to answer many of them(luke 1:3-4). he might have thought why follow this Jewish God?. That maybe the reason why he traced the genealogy all the way to Adam. That may be the reason why he found this parable of 2 sons very important to include in his book. He found 2nd as non-Jews who left fathers house longtime ago.

The very first question he tries to answer - who this Father is?. He starts his book by describing the majesty, glory, and mystery behind Jesus birth. Anyone reading that will know that this is not a ordinary birth. Then Luke move on to describe Jesus ministry and culminates with Jesus himself declaring that He is the creator and heavenly Father. First he forgives man's sin which only God can do(Luke 5:17-26) and then calls himself as the Lord of Sabbath(Luke 6:1-6).

What is this sabbath and its connection to Jewish laws. Sabbath law(exodus 20:8) is in the Decalogue(10 commandments) God gave to Moses. There is 2 parts in the law. First part is they to cease from what they do. 2nd part is for them to look towards their Maker(Lord). So that they could be saved from their slavery.

Teachers of the law understood the first part very well. And they did not get the second part. Instead of delivering themselves from slavery, they added more laws to follow. When Jesus and His disciples refused to follow the additional rules the teachers of the law put in, they were furious. Instead of looking towards the Lord to deliver them, they looked towards the devil to kill the Father.

Well there was those 2nd sons who looked towards the Lord of the sabbath to be delivered. Those withered hands, lepers, blind people and sinners. Luke makes it a point to tell us that those deliverance were done on sabbath. When He called Himself as the Lord of the sabbath, He is asking us to look towards him. He will deliver us from all slavery.

The father in this parable of 2 sons, is Jesus Christ. some in the crowd might not have known but teachers of the law knew what He was talking. Luke makes it a point that we get it. This Father is perfect representation of invisible God, radiance of God's glory, and our creator. All can return back to Him and He will deliver.

sola gratia

2011-12-24T21:41:00.000-08:00

Grace alone. Salvation is through grace alone. Salvation is not inherited by birth in a big family. certainly can not be bought. it can not be obtained through any acts of kindness or generosity. But only through grace alone. not the Grace that i and you think in our minds or see through dreams but illuminated to us through scripture. Sola scriptura.

The scripture that you and I have in our hands is about one person and one act. The person is God-man Jesus Christ who is perfect representation of invisible God, radiance of God Glory, and creator of this universe. The act is the atoning sacrifice of himself for our salvation. Man was created to have close relationship with the creator. But on mans disobedience, separation happened at the garden. Separation is so big that only way to saved back to the creator is through an act of grace by this God-man Jesus Christ.

If we decide to believe this message and follow this God-man as the guiding light to restore the original relation we had with God. If we are to be saved, all needs to believe this message and follow Him. there is no exception. If you are a Jew or a Greek. If you are rich or poor. if you perform miracles in Gods name or not. if you are considered a religious leader or not. if you are a scientist or not.

The parable talked at Luke 15: 11-31 is about 2 sons. Both needed the grace of God. Only the younger one realized it and elder one thought he deserved it because he was going to church for a long time. the parable ends with the Father pleading the elder one that it is - sola gratia :- amazing grace, he was lost and is found.

The parable ends there but Luke continues the story. The story ended with elder son killing the Father for letting the younger son into the home. This elder son behavior i have in me. just because i know the scripture better than others, i want the better share of the inheritance. just because i know a better way to pray, i want to be blessed better than my brother. Just because i spend more time at church, i don't want anybody close to me.

You may start thinking that i fully misunderstood the parable. if you think that way, please contact me. i would love to spend sometime why i think this way.

evil good and good evil

2010-06-27T19:50:00.000-07:00

It was a long Saturday with a family friend of us. We went to shooting range late and then followed by shopping and swimming. we went home at around 10.00 p.m. Since his wife too was out of town, we could do that. We pulled out the dinner his beloved wife had made for them and started eating. As we were waiting for his kids to finish eating around 11:30 p.m, Moses picked up his mail and brought the Forbes magazine to dinner table. After reading few pages, he went to last page to read the thoughts of the bi-weekly. The verse was Isaiah 5:20

Woe to those who call evil good, and good evil;
Who substitute darkness for light and light for darkness;
Who substitute bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter!

As I continued my reading on Isaiah, I came to this verse. Then the verses that followed were not easy to read. It talks of people thinking themselves as wise and those who drink heavy. The consequence that follow are not comforting.

Then when I started thinking more, it was comforting. Without achieving much, I used to think I am smart. God out of his sovereign grace had to keep me small so that I am protected from those that are talked in this chapter.

Also now I pay attention to the deeds of the Lord and consider works of His hand(Isaiah 5:12).

I am now surrounded by people who live a very high standard of life. Men I meet on Saturday mornings are quality people. Men on Sunday Adult fellowship are people who I can follow as model. Family friends of us are really kind. I was called for dinner every weekend. Friends I play basket ball with are great. These friends are not what i selected but these are deeds of the Lord.

I trusted too much on the works of my hand. I had a coworker who used to say that he earned all his money through tips his fingers. I used to live under the hope that people will constantly praise me for the work I do. I still remember the day when I told my father that I will earn more than him by the age of 30. I am 38 and i find all around me earn more than me. Reason for the failure is trusting on the work of my hand. If I had trusted the son, life would have been very different.

I trusted the evil that is in me and called it good. Woe to those who call evil good.

king's court

2010-06-11T15:59:00.000-07:00

I am to study Isaiah for the summer but i have not gone past 2 verses. But I did look up the second verse in internet.

Hear O Heavens! Listen O earth!.

The picture it draws is greater than what my mind can think. It was first said by Moses. Moses grew up in pharaoh court as pharaoh's adopted son. He is used to seeing royalty on the highest level. He has also seen all different gods of Egypt. In fact he went back to Egypt after exile and defeated all their gods. On leading people of Israel to promised land, he was intimidated by the rebelliousness nature of the people. They made a golden cafe and declared it as their deliverer. In his prayer Moses asked to see God's glory. Glory that he saw is what he is talking about. The great king is on His throne and heavens and earth are His subjects.

There are multiple things Moses is talking here. human greatest royalty is nothing compared to the glory he saw. gods of this world are nothing compared to the power of the great King. he declares himself to be more knowledgeable in knowing truth than all others around him. Also how foolish are the people in not following God's commands. Then he pleads his people to obey and trust the great King.

Like Moses there were other prophets followed. Finally King's Son himself came to reveal the glory. King's Son said, if you believe the Son and obey the kingdom commandments, you can also be there in the Kings court just like Him.

People are amazed looking at the beauty of this world and we want to preserve it. One day we all will get to see the kingdom. question is if we are inside or outside the kingdom. What a feeling to be inside the King's court.

I have been invited to many homes. Some are rich and others not that rich. Some made me feel very comfortable and others made me look small. some gave me best food they could not afford for themselves and others what was left over. some opened the full house and other just little bit inside front door. Some left a sign on front door asking me to leave and others gave their house key for me to live inside.

But when i enter the Kings Court, they will make me feel very welcomed. I will tell them, I am not worthy to receive this treatment. I will ask them what did I do that you are treating me like a king when for most part I was rebelliousness against the King. One of them will say, you trusted the King. Another will say that the King still holds those tear drops from your eyes in his Hands. The very Hands that created heavens and earth.

Hear O heavens! Listen O earth!

good master

2009-08-11T05:55:00.000-07:00

A rich young man addressed Christ as Good Master and He replied, why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is God.

I really don't like to write personal stories because it sounds self serving or self destroying. but will do it as the last time.

During the final year in college i had a skin disease and was very ashamed about it. My father took me to doctor and Dr said it was just stress and gave some medicine. i don't think it worked. maybe it was just an antidepressants. all i wished them in life was this. a cup of rice and dal(http://en.wikipedia.com/wiki/Dal) to eat with it.

Now I have come long way because the good Master decided to be good to a worthless.

Everything works together for good because He is a good Master. We need to trust Him as a good Master. on both words- good and Master.

Good meaning, He looks out for the best in you. That He has you as the apple of His eye. You are not worthless but very precious that He asked His Son to die for you.

Master meaning He is omniscient. He knows all things that goes around you. He knows you will come out in flying colours when all is done.

I talk lot about positive thinking. it is not asking you to think contrary to what is going on. It is askign you to think God has a bigger plan for all the ordeal that you are going through.

I said - God is good. and they shouted - all the time.

follies of my younger years

2009-07-18T18:40:00.000-07:00

Spurgeon on Psalm 25-7:

Verse 7. Remember not the sins of my youth. Sin is the stumbling block. This is the thing to be removed. Lord, pass an act of oblivion for all my sins, and especially for the hot blooded wanton follies of my younger years. Those offences which we remember with repentance God forgets, but if we forget them, justice will bring them forth to punishment. The world winks at the sins of younger men, and yet they are none so little after all; the bones of our youthful feastings at Satan's table will stick painfully in our throats when we are old men. He who presumes upon his youth is poisoning his old age. How large a tear may wet this page as some of us reflect upon the past!

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When I started working in Bangalore I had a preacher son as roommate. He used to repent for his sins at college. All others in the room used to make fun of him by asking what petty sins he had done. We considered those as no sins.

Where as I was the opposite. My sins were big and I wanted to cover it. There was college mate of mine at work. He was from Electronics and communication branch and I think he was one of the top students in class. I was very nice to him so that he will not tell. Then I wanted to out-perform him in work so that even if he says, people will think it is out of jealousy. what a folly. what a folly. what a folly.

If I had repented then, life would have been very different. Pride settled in me well when head of the company said, 'you need to have fun as Samuel did in college and perform as good as him in work'. I don't know how much he meant, but that killed me. I started to live a bigger sin life with full of pride.

I was and am a fool. But used to think very high of myself. Then out of Sovereign Grace, God introduced some people in my life. They constantly pour out insults at me so that I don't get those pride again. I still hangout with them because they keep me on check. b.t.w :- If you are one of them reading this, I am not talking about you.

I have a great life now. I think low of myself most of the time and look for God's mercy and grace to feel if I have anything in me.

finally:- I hear me when reading Spurgeon on this - How large a tear may wet this page as some of us reflect upon the past!

fathers' day

2009-06-22T09:43:00.000-07:00

I wanted to write about my father on fathers' day. but 'A tree is best measured when it is down.' I am expecting lot more great things from him.

Since I am a father now, I was thinking what will my sons say of me. I am now connecting with my school/college/work/relative friends through facebook. They all will have different things to say of me. Some will say good of me even with all my weakness. Others will say bad of me with all my little goodness. What will my sons say of me? Heard this song in church on fathers' day. Song is 'let it be said of us' by Steve Fry.

Let it be said of us:
We were marked by forgiveness.
We were known by our love,
And delighted in meekness.

We were ruled by His peace,
Heeding unity's call;
Joined as one body
that Christ would be seen by all.

Let the Cross be our glory
And the Lord be our song.
By mercy made holy
By the Spirit made strong.

Let the Cross be our glory
And the Lord be our song.
'Till the likeness of Jesus
Be thru us made known.

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Nathan will you say this of me?

2009-06-13T18:28:00.000-07:00

amma and appa

Jubilee - 50th anniversary

2009-04-11T04:48:00.000-07:00

50 year celebration like 50th year reign of Queen of England is called Jubilee. This word Jubilee come from Old Testament meaning 'blowing of ram's horn'.

When people of Israel were slaves in the land of Egypt,Lord appeared to their leader Moses in a burning bush. Lord said that He will deliver them from slavery and promised them with land flowing with milk and honey. On their exodus/journey, Lord gave His commandments to be followed in the promised land. Among them is the 'year of Jubilee'. It is described in Leviticus 25:10 as - Consecrate the 50th year and proclaim liberty throughout the land to all its inhabitants. It shall be a jubilee for you.

You will find this verse in the Liberty Bell in Philadelphia. The bell was ordered by Pennsylvania assembly to commemorate their 50th year celebration of Pennsylvania original constitution.

Liberty is the main idea behind these celebration. And it is a continuing theme from Judaism to Christianity. When Lord Jesus Christ started his ministry on this world, He did it by opening the scrolls and reading Isaiah 61. 'The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me because the Lord has anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor. He has sent me to bind the brokenhearted, to proclaim Liberty to the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners.'

You may ask why I am talking about slavery when we live in a free and democratic country. We may not be under physical slavery, but we are slaves for our sin nature.

You may also ask why I am talking about slavery on 50th wedding anniversary celebration of my parents. I am going to talk about 3 characters for each of my parents. These characters are built by having deliverance from our sin nature.

Let me not show gender bias. So will start with my mother. Three character we find with her are 1. Caring 2. Talented 3. Prayerful

Caring:- I am writing this on mothers day. All mothers are special and they care for their children. That is why it is celebrated in a big way. But my mother is special. When I was working in Bangalore, there were many engineers from tamilnadu. Only person who got phone calls from his mother every other day was me. When my father was worried about the phone bills, she was worried about her children. She never had her eyes on gold, money, or self glory. She had total focus on her children and grandchildren. Her physical weakness never stopped her from doing that.

Talented:- My father says this always. Your mother needs no training or education, she knows things without that. She can talk about medicine without being a doctor. She solves math problems in no time. I was told she got full marks in maths all the time. She was very quick in all things she did. She will write 3 page letters to us within 3 minutes. Those letters had information, instruction, love, and concern. Some of those letters were very strong. I am very fortunate now because she can not type emails that quick. By the way- she learnt to send emails much before some of her age group people learnt to do it. She has been sending emails from 1999 onwards.

Prayerful:-When you talk with her cousins or childhood friends, they will say she was good looking, well dressed, and talented girl. She must have been a very confidence person. But I know her as a prayerful person. There is a day and night difference between confident person and prayerful person. Former put his trust on himself where as the later puts confidence on God. Former thinks high of himself, whereas the later understand depravity of men.

Change of event happened during the delivery of her first child. She felt her spirit leaving her body. And then she remembered Psalms 91 and prayed that. ' he shall call upon Me and I will answer him. I will be with him in times of trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With a long life will I bless him and show him My salvation.' It is almost 50 years since she has said that prayer and He is faithful to bless her with a long life.

Now my Father :- I find 3 character of him which i admire most. 1. Grateful 2. Hardworking 3. forgiving.

Grateful:- We live in a day and age where people expect more than what they deserve. They say - I have this education, I need to be treated better than that. Or I am from a great family and i demand better treatment. They murmur constantly for what they have. they walk around as if the world should serve them constantly. My father is just the opposite of that.

After my grandmother death, my grandfather gave money with a lady to provide food to my father and left for Srilanka. There were days when she did not provide. I asked him if he is angry with her. He said he is grateful for the food she provided. He is always thankful to his friends family who gave him cloths, his teacher who encouraged him to do engineering, MSP Raja in virudhunagar, C. Arumganayagam for job he had in the government, Fathers who helped him in business and the list goes on. He talks lots of profound things. One of them is 'Even the president of US can not think he is the president'. For world does not owe anything to us but we owe everything back to this world.

Hardworking:- Anybody who has visited his village will understand the hard work that he has put in. He has put lot of hard work in studies, sports, and business. We as children are enjoying the fruits of his efforts. We children still have to introduce ourselves as Periasamy children.

Forgiving:-
I find this as his greatest character. I was eight years old and my younger brother was 6 and we lived in Virudhunagar. When we were at school, suddenly schools will close for the polytechnic college strike. It will be a total chaos in the town and we will be escorted back home by college students. My father was a principle of it. Because of those strikes we had to move to Chennai.

I asked him about the Virudhunagar incident when he visited US. He is not bitter about it and is happy that it happened. When they meant it for bad, he considered it as good. Those trials gave him opportunity to work in Chennai. When he became little influential in Chennai, that Secretary came to visit him asking if he can stand for the election again. Appa encouraged him to stand again.

I have talked these great characters my parents have. These don't come naturally. Opposite of these are what we possess and we are slaves to those. Many don't forgive and live under slavery of bitterness. Many are slave to mental and physical weakness and they can not work hard. Many are slave to pride and they are never grateful.

There is a great need for all of us to come out of our own slavery that is stopping our success. You know what is holding your success. When we are out of those, all we need to do is believe.

Favorite book of my parents is 'power of positive thinking' by Normal Vincent Peale. He read it when he moved to Chennai and also after he retired. All that matters is belief and faith. This world is not about strong people. This world is not about rich people. This world is not about well educated people. It is about you. It is about you believing the dream. When you believe, you get to be the strong, rich and sophisticated person. It becomes a Jubilee. Thanks You. God Bless You.

disciple

2009-02-17T21:30:00.000-08:00

'Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth. Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be satisfied.' Sermon on the mount.

I have attended church all my life. No one sermon stayed in my mind for a long time as a sermon from Mark Young on John 3. It was within a year when I started attending Stonerbriar. I have heard the word 'born again' but never knew the meaning till then. Same must have been the effect of 'sermon on the mount' on Matthew. Sermon was given around 30 to 33 AD and Matthew wrote it around 50 to 60 AD. Christ must have given illustrations for every point. There must have been a great vocal variety and everything needed in public speaking. It is truly a sermon of all sermons.

1.
There are those people who will take offense for every word you speak. They want to be the boss all the time. they feel they have inherited the world for the little success they have seen. If they have some of those charismatic gifts, their nuisance is uncontrollable.

Then there are those who are meek. Whatever you tell, they are never offended. These meek people will never take the rights to respond back for a harm that was done to them. A perfect example is Christ.

Application:
We all have a choice, we can be devil-like to fight with everyone or meek lamb like Christ. You may think whom am i talking about. I am talking about the Moron that lives in me. Everyday I feel bad for the rights I took to get even with people. I always wish I should not have done that. Blessed are the meek, they will inherit the earth.

2. We need to struggle to know righteousness. It fact we need to hunger and thirst for righteousness to know little bit of it. Human as a nature is a very bad fellow. There is nothing good in him. but would love to show he is very righteous. this reminds me of all police officers and people of influence in governments in India. they are very corrupt. but they will put a show as if they are very honest people. Police officer wife/son will always say their husband/father are very honest people, unlike all other police people. when I hear them say that, i only think of myself. I love to show myself as very pious but my heart is full of deceit.

Fallen men pursuit of all other things in this world will not be satisfied but only a pursuit of righteousness will be satisfied.

Application :
The Lord says, 'Wise people should not boast that they are wise. Powerful people should not boast that they are powerful. Rich people should not boast that they are rich. If people want to boast, they should boast about this: They should boast that they understand and know me. They should boast that they know and understand that I, the Lord, act out of faithfulness, fairness, and justice in the earth and that I desire people to do these things' says the Lord.

A true disciple - a meek fallen man/woman who thirst and hunger for righteousness.

limited atonement

2009-01-30T13:56:00.000-08:00

The sacrifice of Christ on the cross was for the purpose of saving the elect.

I think I have problem with this calvin TULIP. On this week study of 'day of atonement' in leviticus 16, i have come to this conclusion.

The High priest did atonement for all in the camp. So when Christ did the high priest job for us, it was for all. Both elect and non-elect are in it.

The argument that sacrifice for non-elect is going waste is a good one. But i don't think it is a important one. As Dr. Swindoll refers 2 peter 2:1 for it, I also think reading from scripture is more important than any logic we can apply.

Why is this that important. Because work of Christ as High Priest is a complete work.

As much as we can, we must talk and think very high of His work. not any less. We should have a very high view of His work on cross. Remember the principle- We should have a very high view of God.

All other 4 have a high view of God and His work. This does not.

grace

2009-01-26T10:12:00.000-08:00

i have been thinking a lot about what was told in church and also what i heard from my friend. church pastor said, if you are not bright student or a successful person in life, don't take the trouble in spreading the gospel. message from Failed person does harm to the message. In fact the pastor suggested that these failure people to call themself as mormon or muslim.

I have great respect for these two people. I have a issue with what they talked because their view is a poor understanding of God's Grace.

If you read 1 corinthians 1, you know what i am talking.

They (pastor and friend) judged themself to be more holy/successful then others and they can spread the gospel where as failed people should not.

Why pride a big sin?. Why is God against it. I will be mad if someone copy my idea/work/efforts and say it as theirs. Same is what happens with people of pride. They receive grace from God and say it is their efforts. they are better student at school because of Grace of God. They have success in work because of God's grace. The main component in their success is Grace of God. It is not their brain in preaching or the efforts they put in it.

So don't take their advice. Take this from me. If the world considers you a fool, you are the perfect person to spread the gospel. Or if you consider yourself a fool, then you are a perfect messenger of the gospel.

What the world considers as best brains are not really the best. What the world consider as successful person are not really successful ones.

you may think what type of complex i am having. why does he call himself a fool?. When compared to His wisdom, there can be nobody with anything of it. Just like a drop of water is nothing compared to a sea/ocean, our understanding of anything is nothing when compared to infinite wisdom.

careful little eyes

2009-01-08T20:59:00.000-08:00

pride

2008-12-12T12:24:00.000-08:00

Please read - Colson on Pride

http://www.cnn.com/2008/POLITICS/12/10/colson.corruption/index.html

2008-12-12T12:14:00.000-08:00

disciple

2008-11-13T19:10:00.000-08:00

in this information age, all wants to be leaders. Many wants to be first among 1000. then there are those stars who wants to be one in a million. if i write asking me to be a disciple, you may feel i am little out of touch with the world.

what is important in team building?. leader has to tell what is expected from the group. if leader does not have a vision, my advice is leave that group. leader without vision goes nowhere and he is going to drown you with him. we talked that in mission.

then we need disciples to make things happen.

why do people follow?. is it that they don't have another option that they follow.

when i think more about it, what makes a person to follow the leader is the trust the leader has build in the disciple. when disciple knows that the leader has best interest of the group in his mind, disciple will do all that is needed.

I have seen people taking credit for following rule of the land or commandments of their religion. Some call them self as law abiding citizen. Some as pious follower of the religion. If they do it without trusting the nation or God of the religion, i don't know what to call them.

i follow rules of this country because of her promise of American dream to all. i follow my religion because of the trust my God has built in me through His service. my trusted nation can fail me. my trusted leader/boss can fail me. my trusted friend may fail me. my trusted parents can fail me. my trusted wife can fail me. They may not say or do things for my best interest.

i know someone who has you and me in our best interest. do you like to know?

mission - just a positive thinking

2008-07-30T08:50:00.000-07:00

During our summer vacations, we used to travel to our uncle's home in Vellore. There in his living room was a painting with 2 little birds flying in a very high altitude. It was a very scenic painting to see. More than the painting itself what got my father's attention was what written at bottom of the painting.

It said - ' they fly because they think they can'. if i could rephrase it for the title. ' they fly because they positively think they can.'

gentlemen and ladies, if there is a goal that you want to achieve in life, i think there are only 3 things you got to follow.

you need to have a positive thinking.
got to visualize the prize/joy set before you to endure the cross.
throw away your worries.

All these steps are very simple and self explanatory. Let me try to explain.

+tive thinking: There are 2 type of people talking to you all the time. One talking good things and another talking bad things. One will take you to good places and another take to bad places. Or to say it different- there are 2 line of thoughts that runs your mind all the time. One towards positive side and another towards negative side. for example- if you find a man hurt in a car accident on your commute to work. one thought will say- go and help that person. another says don't do it because you will hurt yourself by doing it. My advice to you is to listen to the positive side. You may like to try your entrepreneurship skills. Some will say don't try it because it will hurt you and others will ask you to try it because you will have many to gain from it. it is better to listen to positive side of it.
visualize the prize set before you : If you want to be a Olympic athlete, you got to visualize being one. That is when you can do those strenuous workout. If it takes to sleep only 3 hours a day to be a CEO of GE, you can never be able to do it if you don't visualize yourself being the CEO. there will be days where you will not be allowed to eat what you want to eat if you want to be a world class athlete. (check out the word athlete. it comes from athle-a Greek meaning contend for a prize.)
Don't worry: When you want to be somebody, there will be many who will hate you. if you have little success they will hate you even more. they will hate you for the color of your skin. they will hate you for the belief that you have. they will hate you for the language that you speak. they will hate you when you walk in and they will hate you when you walk out. when something bad happens they say he deserves it. they want to kill you with their words, actions, and influence. There is nothings you can do about it. you write those in a paper and crush it to throw it in trash. if you struggle in throwing it to trash, you can give it to my son. he knows how to throw it.

2nd and 3rd are just the first point of positive thinking. 2nd is a motivation to listen for positive ideas or thoughts. 3rd point is the reason not to listen to negative thoughts or persons.

All is nothing but positive thinking. There must be some cynic out here thinking, samuel - life is not that simple. let me tell you this. this world is not about wise men. this world is not about rich men. this world is not about the mighty men. it is about you. it is about you believing in the dream. then you get to be the strong, rich, and wise men. then you get to be the 2 little birds flying in that high heights.

adios.

Grace

2008-06-24T10:46:00.000-07:00

i want this to be told of me- a man of grace. should i be called graceful person for me showing grace or for receiving it?. i am just an object of grace. i have nothing to show it.

my middle name is Kirubakaran. meaning man of grace. i don't know how much my parents knew about grace. But my father did teach me few on it. He said nobody deserves this world -even the president of US.

Bono in Stuck in the moment- i was not jumping but it was a fall , a fall to nothing at all.

heard this in t.v of what tim russert father told him. The world does not owe Tim anything and he does to the world.

i told names like tim russert, bono, us president, and my father. i think they are great people and they deserve this world for their efforts. I see people around me and the efforts they put in. I feel small seeing them. I don't have any capacity to put in those efforts. when I was sitting in my friends place last week, i could only think how gracious my God is towards me.

I was talking with a couple who has a daughter of 8 to 9 years old. they were complaining how bad the school her daughter was studying. father said boys don't know how to socialize. so they took their girl out of that school. i could only think, i was one of those boys.

my eyes were filled with tears when i read 2nd half of 'born again' by colson. when that can happened for a smart person like him, it can happen for me.

i talked so low of me not to get self pity, but to show how great few people are. of whom this world is not worthy of.

when my mother's brother was sick, my grandmother prayed- lord take my life instead of his. she considered her son's life more important than hers.

knowing very well that they will die in 5 to 10 years after they land in india, many europeans kept coming to south india to build schools. they considered all deprived indians life more important than theirs.

history is filled with people like these. they are truly graceful people.

some know grace by receiving it and few by giving it. all i want to say is this. it does not matter how you know it but if you know it.

i take pride in my understanding of grace. do you?

disciple

2008-05-30T10:23:00.000-07:00

Shanthi(wife) tells me all the time to discipline nathan(son) who is just 3 years old. when asked a rich man how he has time for all, he said he disciplines himself. my father was called a disciplinarian when he was a principle of a college.

does shanthi wants nathan to follow all that she says? or she has rules in place that nathan should follow. Is it the rules that nathan should follow or the person(shanthi).

when you follow a person you are called a disciple. but none of my father's students are called disciples. nathan even if he follows all that shanthi says, he will never be called a disciple of shanthi.

the rich man gives the answer. he follows no human. But he follows his missions. he has set rules to achive those missions and he follows it. somebody reminds him all the time that he has to follow those rules. he is a disciple of that person whom he and we can not describes to perfection. well you may say, his mind is magically tuned to do it. if it is, why not for all.

the question is - disciple follow a person or rules. if rules, who reminds you to do it?. will any follow a master who himself not followed those rules.

mission

2008-05-29T08:44:00.001-07:00

what is mission?. does all have one?. how short should the short term mission be and how long should a long term mission be?. do we have to tell others of our missions?. does it be in the area of my interest or in the area where everybody wants to be?. who's help we can take to set it? should it be in the area of work?.

how to sell your mission with your family?. To how many do you have to sell it?. If the person who's help you want does not buy your mission, what should be done. Do we drop it or still try it?

LEt me what you think?